Steady and straight…

I’m like a sailor looking for my home port today after a rough, stormy day on the ocean.

The seas had been calm, for the most part and I look out on the horizon and its steady and straight.  Then at sunrise, I see some clouds in the distance and the sky takes on a pale pink tone.  Before I know it, as the sun breaks over the swells, the sky has turned a deeper, reddish hue.

“Red sky in the morning, sailor take warning”

The long, slow swells change and a pattern that looks like a million butterflies covers the surface.  It’s a sign the wind is changing too.  The ocean is choppy now and I’m feeling the squall approach.

All day long, I put the bow into the swells and try to find some flat water.  Not today.  It will be up and down, side to side and it will be all I can do to ride out the storm  It hits its peak at 11:15 at night. I am exhausted from a day of being battered by my memories of loss.

I fall asleep, finally, and dream of better days.

The morning light brings blue skies, calm seas and a clear view of the horizon…steady and straight, again.



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sasha August 19, 2013 at 7:48 am

Beautiful post Laurie………………..still lifting


Nan Holmes August 17, 2013 at 4:14 pm

We all wish we could shield loves ones (and ourselves) from such rough seas. There are days when nothing calms the waters–only hanging on and waiting for the storm to pass. Laurie, so sorry you had to have such a rough anniversary day.


Brady Merrill August 16, 2013 at 8:54 pm

Breathe in, breathe out, step by little step, a little each moment, and soon, (never soon or quick enough) the calmer seas return and it will be red skies at night sailors delight.


Al August 16, 2013 at 6:44 pm

You have weathered the storm, a heart-wrenching storm that battered and buffeted you so that it seemed it would never end. Finally, you made it through…heartsick and beaten down by life’s tragedy…the loss of a soul mate. Why…the age old question that has no answer that we can discern. The tempest will revisit you again and again but hopefully, it will moderate in its intensity.

Thank you for your word pictures. They say it all. Peace to you.


Kathie Scott August 16, 2013 at 5:59 pm

Beautifully written..perfect description of the day.


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