Al makes a very good point….we need to keep our cancer memories under the surface.
I learned over the last 32 months that when friends asked how I was doing, immediately after Leroy died, they were expecting me to answer describing how hard life was without him. I would say how much I miss him. I would say how much I miss hearing his voice and his laugh. As the months have passed, I’ve had people tell me I should be over the grief. I shouldn’t feel melancholy any more. So now, I know who I can be straight with and express my feelings and who really is just asking, because they think it’s the right thing to do.
I’ve learned to put those feelings and those memories just under the surface, where I can feel them, but where they are not on display.
Leroy, I miss you like crazy….but that’s just between you and me.