A Dusty Easter Basket Now
Talk about memories, closure and remembering. Here we are in the midst of another holiday season. Easter weekend is upon us, Passover is almost half over and just feeling Spring’s wonderful embrace has opened up another page out of my memory album with Leroy.
I’m so grateful to have all these moments stored away for instant access, but God help anyone who asks me how I’m doing these days, because they will get a truthful answer. I MISS HIM.
I miss putting that Easter basket filled with See’s candy Easter eggs and that big chocolate bunny on his side of the bed. It happened every year, but he’d still pretend to be surprised. I MISS HIM.
As Mo said, the hole goes deeper. She’s right, it does. I guess time does that, but the missing and the loss can’t be erased.
Some people are better at substituting, finding a fill-in or replacement. You can’t convince me they find a match, but they do find a someone who can be a companion. That’s an important piece to some who don’t like being alone.
For now, I’ll take the memories. They fill the empty part of me with great images of a life I loved and the man I loved who helped make that life.
Wishing you all a good holiday, with happy memories to fill you up.
April 23, 2011 @ 11:54 am
Central Texas is experiencing some very dry and windy conditions. Yet in spite of that thousands of roses have bloomed here on our property, as they defy the harsh conditions. On this Easter weekend, I gaze at them in wonder because they are much more than roses-they are survivors!
April 23, 2011 @ 12:15 am
VP Joe Biden makes the point that you cannot just “go on” with your life without accepting the fact that a lost loved one will always be with you. They define you and they are an inseparable part of who you are. Horror-guilt-sadness-the feeling that you were robbed and emotionally raped….feelings that are not going to pass-over. But you have been given the gift of completely being able to discern the portrait of love. Safety belongs to another world-what matters here is honesty and acceptance of who you are now. You don’t have to pretend-especially to yourself.It’s ok to need something back. A well placed chocolate bunny is just part of a much needed daily resurrection.
April 22, 2011 @ 4:04 pm
I will still take the chocolate bunny to the cemetery just as I take the chocolate heart on Valentine’s day. I just have to do this.
April 21, 2011 @ 7:35 pm
Great story, Al.
Laurie, Leroy will still take the chocolate. And my brother will still take his pie.
Love to all and may peace be with you in this Easter season. ~ Mo
April 21, 2011 @ 6:48 pm
I saw an email about an elderly man who went to his barber to get spruced up for his weekly visit to his wife who has had Alzheimer’s for a number of years. The barber asked him “Why do you go every Friday. She doesn’t know who you are.” The man replied, “We’ve been married for 56 years. It doesn’t matter that she doesn’t know me. I know who she is!” Memories, true memories, aren’t easily erased and shouldn’t be. Guard them fiercely and treasure them even more.
Happy Easter and Passover to everyone.