A Satchel Full of Time…
This heart is beating slower today. It’s feeling the weight of so many memories; like an over stuffed satchel hanging heavy over my shoulder.
The ‘Big Guy’ made a place for himself in that heart. He filled it with laughter, smiles, good conversations and that’s where we kept the plans to grow old together. Birthday parties, kisses, hugs; memories like little Kodak photographs, maybe yellowed with age, sit there now, ready to be summoned on a moments notice.
Today, I’m reaching into that place, to remember our ‘marrying day.’ A bride and a groom, who lived so many years together, always thinking we’d do the deed when we got around to it.
The official marriage was a brief one. Cut short by an intruder with no interest in making more memories.
The weight of this day will lift eventually and the new rhythm of my days will return. I’ll have to do something about adjusting the strap on that satchel.
Happy Anniversary, Leroy.
June 20, 2012 @ 1:36 am
I have been reading your posts Laurie, such a sad time for you. Yes, those “special days” are always tough. We pushed all the loneliness and the hurt so far out of the way and then BAM, it comes flooding back with one little thought. I think it’s healthy, it’s a time for us to remember and get stronger with those memories. We learn to relive the good, throw away any of the bad and focus on the love we shared. Then after a few days, we have recharged and are ready to move forward again. I always believe it’s the memories that keep the spirit of our loved ones close to us.
I’m always here, always reading and “still lifting”….my “thoughts” are with you as you enjoy your quiet moments of remembering Leroy…
June 19, 2012 @ 8:17 pm
Happy Anniversary Laurie and Leroy. Eventhough your heart is heavy Laurie I know you will draw on all the love and memories in your heart. Go with it! You have become such a friend to us in this little group, we will be right there beside you.
June 19, 2012 @ 6:54 pm
My heart is with you Laurie………….still lifting
June 19, 2012 @ 6:29 pm
Still here, still following, still lifting. Love to you.