An unbalanced ledger…
Dennis and Gary, Judie’s friends, are mourning the loss of their wives to cancer.
I got an email from a friend who is trying to digest the news that her Mom has just been diagnosed with breast cancer. She’s having surgery in a few days.
And here I was, thrilled with the stories of three cancer patients who had some how managed to beat back the beast and live…live…live.
And just when the world starts to steady itself, cancer unhinges that axis and away we go, spinning out of control because of three little words, “YOU have cancer.”
From the beginning to the end; It seems it always comes out an unbalanced ledger.
April 14, 2014 @ 2:52 pm
Thought I might be ready to come here and contribute once again….so I read many of the blogs and posts. I’m not ready…..my grief and loss are not more important than anyone else’s. it is just mine. Friends ask if I’m OK and I say “sometimes” but my “sometimes” are very few as of now. But I’m working to try to be able not to have numerous times of crying when I see specific triggers that cause immense sadness.
My daughter and I still do Meals On Wheels which helps greatly to see others who need us to lean on but try so hard to console us. We also go to God’s Garden..a special place where members of our church plant, tend, grow and harvest ..tomatoes, squash, peppers, eggplant, okra, turnips, kale, collards, corn, watermelons, cantaloupes, potatoes, cucumbers, lettuce, etc.. We are just beginning to ready the Garden for planting. We took 5-6 thousand pounds of food stuffs to MUST Ministries who then gives it to those in need. Digging in the dirt is therapeutic for me plus I know that others will be helped by my efforts.
I’m changed forever and not for the better as I see it at this time. I appreciate all of the very kind words, prayers and thoughts of kindness extended to me and my family. One fine day and in God’s own time, I shall return to try to help others. May God bless you all.
April 14, 2014 @ 4:30 pm
Al,
YOU’RE ALWAYS HERE WITH US…..
Take good care of yourself, please.
Laurie
April 10, 2014 @ 9:50 pm
It does seem to like to keep us off balance and without hope. You have to try to keep the hope alive, it’s one of the best tools for bashing back at cancer.
April 10, 2014 @ 8:55 pm
That’s the way the beast works..