She says she feels like a widow.
She says she’s lonely.
She says she’s a little afraid.
She says she’s sad.
It’s been 23 days and all of these emotions have been flowing through her heart: this open valve can not be closed. Truly, there is nothing that can stop this flood. It has to ebb and flow and ache and pound to it’s own rhythm. Each one of us who has gone through it had to do it independent of the support and love we received from those who wanted to help. We have to feel this part of grieving alone, because no one can imagine how we really feel.
This part is a solo journey.
This is the ‘feeling like a widow’ part.