It’s not just another day…
It’s not just another day.
I stopped trying to make it just another day a long time ago.
Leroy died this day, eight years ago, and when I look back I see the stages of grief the experts talk about and I guess I went through just about every one. I think I added a few new ones too. Each of us have our own layers of grief depending on the details of our lives and that’s OK.
It takes a lot for me to tear up at the mention of his name now. Early on I could turn into a puddle just walking by his picture on the wall. I’ve come a long way.
I still talk about him in the “almost” present when a story comes to mind. I think about how he would have loved a movie I’d seen or a concert we would have gone to. And I still love to see his Hawaiian shirts in the closet.
But it’s different now. The “missing” is different.
I’d like to think his adventuresome spirit is still soaring; his big, wonderful laugh is still echoing somewhere and for all the wisdom and guidance he shared, I hope those who benefited, will remember him today of all days.
It’s not just another day.
August 17, 2016 @ 3:23 pm
You’re both in my heart…
August 17, 2016 @ 11:17 am
I echo the sentiments above. It’s amazing how a person can touch people they have never met, and even after they are gone. Leroy’s journey and your journey have touched me deeply. My husband has had stage IV lung cancer for 4 years. Your eloquent words have helped me to think about where we are and where we will one day be, and how I will handle it. I suppose one never knows how they ill handle something until it’s right there in front of them, but you have certainly helped me to prepare.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
August 16, 2016 @ 6:28 pm
My heart is with you Laurie. Don’t post much anymore, but, continue to read your blog. As always, still Lifting…………..
August 16, 2016 @ 8:51 pm
LOVE that you’re here Sasha..
L
August 15, 2016 @ 7:59 pm
Laurie, you and Leroy have touch more folks than either of you would have thought possible.
It might get slightly easier, the pain might not be as intense, but you never forget the ones you’ve lost.
I think on mine every day, I hope they have the peace they so deserve, that their pain has gone and the spirit can fly.
Wishing you nothing but the warmest fondest memories.
August 16, 2016 @ 10:36 am
MY heartfelt thanks for the support…I appreciate every word, every day.
L
August 15, 2016 @ 11:31 am
Laurie,
I can still see Leroy coming into Peggy’s or Paul and Dee’s – such a vibrant presence – I always
was really in awe of him! I hope you are in Hawaii, remembering your happy moments together,
and celebrating his magnificent life.
I’m glad you are in Hawaii – but I missed you at our last lunch .
Much love……….
August 15, 2016 @ 11:03 am
Laurie…you are in my thoughts today as you are many other days. You’re so right that the missing is different and the memories often bring smiles instead of tears. Have some chocolate today and celebrate Leroy!
March 31, 2017 @ 12:21 am
Ne néglige pas le côté romantique de Kévin, qui s&mouqs;affirrera au fil des années. Il a repris goût à l’étude, fait des pas importants. Sa personnalité, que tu croques, au fil des tes contributions, sera précieuse.