Past and Present…

So how did everyone do over the Holidays?

Did you go into December thinking, “I can do this.”  “I won’t let all those Holiday memories come rushing in to remind me what I don’t have again this year?”

I did.

Did it work? Some of the time, but not all of the time.  I had my moments. Some of those moments were not really moments, they were MOMENTS.  What I have learned over the years is that you can’t fight the program.  It’s just like the experts tell you immediately following the loss of your loved one, “let it wash over you.”  It’s like a big wave on a summer day in the ocean; you can’t fight it, it’s bigger than you, so dive into it, let it roll over you and eventually you’ll come out the other side.

My waves are smaller now so I still feel sad, but I come out of it faster so it doesn’t hurt as much.

I suppose the Holidays are just made to pack a wallop.

I have friends who tell me they feel it on calendar days that aren’t marked in numbers and letters; just regular days, when their memories are sparked by seeing a couple holding hands or a hug good-bye at the airport.

That, I call LIFE.  For some of us, it is in the past and for others in the present.

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