The night before…

I didn’t know it,  but this was the night before…

Death had come knocking a few times and he had always been able to push it away.  His doctors had rallied and pulled him out of bad situations.  He’d had the strength and the will to go on.  There was so much to live for and death would have to wait.

This time was different.  Hospice, death’s facilitator, was a part of our team now and all those medicines to ease the pain and promote sleep had been dispensed with a plan in mind.  It would allow death the space it needed for one final visit.

Nine years ago I sat on the edge of Leroy’s hospital bed with old pictures in-hand and old stories in-mind about a couple of young journalists who fell in love with news, sports and each other.  It would be a night of remembering.  I’ll never know why I chose that night to recall some of the craziest, funniest, and serious adventures we had shared together and apart, but I can tell you this, I chose the perfect night.

Maybe those hours of storytelling helped me more than it did him.  He never really responded, but I know he heard me.

I wouldn’t get another night.  This was the night before.



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Dianne West August 16, 2017 at 8:47 am

I had a similar “night before” and know my guy heard me, too. Blessings to you, Laurie, as you remember.


Nan Holmes August 15, 2017 at 9:50 am

Beautiful reminder of Leroy.


Judie August 15, 2017 at 7:25 am

You said it yourself: He heard you. ANYthing you might have said to him gave him comfort. It was YOUR voice! Hugs to you today.


Kathie Scott August 15, 2017 at 3:34 am

Thinking of you today Laurie…


Brady Merrill August 14, 2017 at 8:30 pm

I wonder sometimes if we’d known it was the last time would it had been different?
Its wonderful you were there and talking to him. I’m sure that was soothing for him to hear and in helping him to let go.
As always Laurie our little steps sure do add up.


Amy Mone August 14, 2017 at 7:28 pm

Beautiful, sad, poignant memory. Generous of you to share it.
Leroy was a special person and he married a very special lady.


Heather Erickson August 14, 2017 at 5:54 pm

Thank you for sharing this memory.


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